Kahlil Gibran said that the pain you feel is the breaking of the shell of your understanding.
Just as the seed has to destroy itself to ultimately become the baobab, the bud has to burst its membrane to become the flower.
What holds true for the seed, the bud, the flower and the fruit is analogous of the human psyche. Every cell in our bodies is in a constant state of flux and transformation.
Everything is already there waiting to emerge … waiting for you to stop holding it all together … waiting for you to crack wide open.
Trust in the surrender to the magic that happens when you break out of your bud, not to die but to bloom.